Wow. It's been a while! I wish I could say it's because I've been miraculously healed and too busy living life to blog. I would love to be climbing Mount Kilimanjaro, running a marathon, or bench pressing a small automobile! More realistically, I'd be ecstatic to carry my toddler up a flight of stairs, jog a half-mile, open a jar of baby food without struggling for five minutes, paint my kitchen ceiling, or mow my lawn. Baby steps.
So, the MCAD cocktail is slow-going. Slow as in watching a snail and a turtle race. I'm trying so hard to be patient and give it time. I know it's a gradual process but it's hard to take things a day at a time when you don't feel well. I think it's similar to having a job. It would be much more fun to go right to the promotions and pay raises and skip over all of that hard work nonsense!
The first few days on the Cocktail, I started with half-doses. Dr. Goodman didn't necessarily recommend I do this but I always get nervous with new meds. I had some pretty not fun reactions those first days. I'm now up to full doses (using name brand Allegra and Pepcid as I reacted to the generics). I'm no longer having the bad episodes but I feel pretty crummy overall. My stomach problems are worse than they've been for a while, my arms are extremely weak, and I'm having a lot of lightheadedness.
I'm going to call Dr. Goodman next week and check in with him. That will mark the two week point with the new meds. I'm interested to see what he says. I'm hoping my body is just slow to adjust and that things will get better. I expected these meds would either help or not, I wasn't expecting to actually feel worse. It's been a little discouraging and sometimes I feel like I'm digging my way out of quick sand, but I'm nowhere near finished with this battle. If these meds aren't my answer, then we'll try something else. There may come a day when I have to accept this as my new normal, but I'm stubborn and not ready for that yet.
"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." Hebrews 11:1
Amy
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