Ah Decisions...

Decisions, decisions... Life is full of them!  If you're a member of my family, you're not good at making them.  Deciding where to eat can be an hour long process filled with "I don't care" and "Whatever you want."  On a vacation to Charleston, SC we literally walked up and down a street for nearly an hour because no one would make the final call on which restaurant to try.  Needless to say, decision making is not something that comes easy to me.  I have a hard time being assertive and spend too much time worrying about the "what ifs".

I mentioned in my last post that my hubby was going to be spending an evening with a group of our college friends.  I so wanted to go but with my current health, I knew I would pay for it later.  Let the decision making begin.  Mental health versus physical health.  For once in my life, I can say this wasn't a very hard decision.  Mental health won!  If I didn't get out of our house soon, I was going to lose my mind!  I didn't stay out late and was only out of the house for a couple of hours but it made all the difference.  Yesterday, I felt like a truck had hit me.  I was so exhausted I could hardly keep my eyes open, but my heart was happy!  Sometimes, it's completely worth going through a little physical misery just to heal the heart.

If you live with a chronic illness, you understand the battle between mental health versus physical health.  It is a constant one.  Trying to find a balance between feeling well and actually living your life is exasperating to say the least.  Most of the time, I choose my physical health.  Life is much easier if I stick to my routine.  It is crucial that I keep myself feeling well enough to care for my two young daughters.  However, every once in a while it is necessary to chance feeling like crap so that I don't go stir crazy!  I love my girls and I like to think I'm a pretty good mom, but even I can only take cartoons, potty training, bottle making, and poopy diaper changing for so long!

So today, I'm still tired but also so refreshed!  I'm exhausted but have a new energy for life.  I think I made the right decision!

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths."  Proverbs 3:5-6

Amy