It's Invisible Illness Awareness Week!

So, I'm a little late in posting this as the week is already half over!  As my two year old would say, "It's hump day!"  She's a little obsessed with that camel commercial.  If you haven't seen it, crawl out from under the rock you're living in and look it up on YouTube.  It's pretty hilarious!  Anyways, it's Invisible Illness Awareness Week and it's already half over!  Only a few more precious days to celebrate being blessed with a chronic illness that nobody can see! 

You might think I'm being sarcastic (maybe a little), but I'm actually quite serious.  My chronic illness gives me an outlook on life that can't be found elsewhere.  I have learned to appreciate the little moments in life and not take good days for granted.  I live for the one day a week when I get to take my girls out grocery shopping.  Woo Hoo!  We're finally out of the house!  I love watching my toddler ride in the cart, acting like the world is her stage.  She literally sings and performs for the other shoppers the entire time we're in the store.  And I just smile and laugh and soak it all in!  Then, when we get home, I crash and it takes at least a day to recover.  Our house falls to shambles, but it's all worth it for a few hours out of the house with my best friends. 

The crazy thing about an invisible illness is that most people think you're fine.  It's hard to recognize things we can't see.  I don't help matters by being a Fakey!  I've mastered the art of putting on the fake smile and pretending I feel fine.  I just want to go to a gathering and not feel like death the entire time.  So while I'm smiling, I'm actually thinking about how close the nearest chair is so I can sit before my blood pressure and heart rate go crazy.  Or whether or not I remembered my medications because I need to take them a half hour before I eat.  Or sitting close to an exit in case the room gets too warm.  You get the idea.  Then I get home and the real battle starts.  The muscle weakness, aches, pains, tremors, tachycardia, stomach aches, FATIGUE, etc.  So, I'm smiling because this is the hand I was dealt and I only get one shot at this life so I will enjoy it, but it doesn't mean it's not a struggle.  Every second of every day, I'm reminded of this illness.  I'm also reminded that everyone has struggles in their lives.  Some far worse than mine and I count my blessings because I am so blessed!

So, this week is special to me because it reminds me of my struggles and blessings.  It also brings awareness and hopefully understanding to these life-changing illnesses that are so poorly understood.  I'm going to end this post with a survey that invisibleillnessweek.com is passing around.  Maybe, it will bring even more understanding!

1. The illness I live with is: Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome. There's also an autoimmune issue going on but we have yet to figure that one out!
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: 2008
3. But I had symptoms since: Very early childhood.  I never remember a time when I could run a lap around a gym without blacking out.
4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: Recently switching to the Paleo Diet to work out my autoimmune issues. I feel lucky to have been born with this as I've never known any different.  I can't imagine what it would be like to be perfectly healthy and then have it taken away.
5. Most people assume: I'm not sure.  I'm very lucky to have supportive family and friends.  If other people assume negative things about me, that's their problem.  :-)
6. The hardest part about mornings are: Nothing!  I usually feel really good in the mornings, even though I'm not a morning person!
7. My favorite medical TV show is: I avoid medical TV shows.  I tend to self-diagnose.  Haha!
8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: My phone.  Sad but true!
9. The hardest part about nights are: Right when I'm falling asleep.  A lot of nights my heart is racing, my blood pressure is low, my body is aching, my stomach hurts, I have uncontrollable shaking, the room is spinning, my ears are ringing.  Every night I think, "Just fall asleep and you'll feel like a new person in the morning." Sometimes easier said than done!
10. Each day I take __ pills & vitamins. 5 pills in the morning, 2 vials of liquid before each meal, and 2 vials at bedtime with 2 more pills.
11. Regarding alternative treatments I: Eat Paleo!
12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose:  Invisible!  I love that I can pretend to be normal and don't get pre-judged. 
13. Regarding working and career: I'm fortunate to be a stay-at-home mom.  I hope to work again one day, but we'll see!
14. People would be surprised to know: I don't really have any surprises.  I'm pretty Plain Jane!
15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: The fact that I was doing so much better throughout college and then I woke up from Gallbladder Surgery in the worst shape of my life.  I'd do anything to go back in time and take better care of myself.  I don't know if it would make a huge difference, but it couldn't hurt!
16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: Have 2 beautiful babies!
17. The commercials about my illness: There aren't any.  POTS is really unheard of, but in my opinion more common than people realize.
18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: Eating a meal without worrying about how I'll feel a half hour later!
19. It was really hard to have to give up: Bread!  I feel like all of my answers revolve around food, but I was already used to limiting myself physically because I grew up with the heart issues.  The digestion stuff is all new to me!
20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: I love to crochet.  I'm a Grandma at heart and I love making little hats for babies!
21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: Spend it dancing with my babies and my husband!
22. My illness has taught me: To be compassionate.  I don't know what other people deal with behind closed doors.  Someone may seem like a complainer to me, but maybe they're really struggling with something I don't know about.
23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is:  This generally comes from people who don't know me very well, but it's a little annoying when people assume you're healed because you're out in public.  I have a chronic illness that I will deal with forever.  It doesn't mean I will hole up in my house for the rest of my life.  It also doesn't mean I'm making it up, just because I can spend a day out in public with a smile on my face!
24. But I love it when people: Are sincere.  There are so many people who genuinely care about how I'm doing and that blows my mind sometimes!
25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: "My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Psalm 73:26
26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them:  Keep the faith.  You will adjust and things will get better.  It won't be easy, but it does improve.
27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: How it's much more difficult mentally than it is physically.  Physical pain is easy, mental pain is a whole different ball game!
28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: Pray for me!  Those prayers helped and I was brought to tears every time someone called to tell me they had their church or bible study group pray for me!  God listened!
29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: Awareness is powerful.  People need to recognize and understand invisible illnesses.
30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: In the words of my favorite reality tv star Phil Robertson from "Duck Dynasty": "Happy, Happy, Happy!"