The last couple of days have gone backwards for me. This strange pressure feeling in my head has become more intense, resulting in my ears ringing louder. It's not so much a sinus issue. It feels like I have too much fluid around my brain or something. Sometimes the pressure is behind my eyes, sometimes deep in my ears, sometimes at the base of my head, and sometimes in my forehead. It's uncomfortable to say the least. I also get some vertigo as the pressure builds. I've also been waking in the night with tachycardia. I'll be sound asleep and wake abruptly soaked in sweat and with a heart that's trying to escape my chest. I'm trying to push through and am convinced things will calm down again, rather than get worse.
These "down" times can be more difficult mentally than they are physically. I often start to ask God what he's trying to tell me. I'm a firm believer in the fact that we all go through experiences in life for a reason. There is a reason God decided I should live with a chronic illness. Well, yesterday I figured it out!
My life with a chronic illness would be perfect if I had a maid, cook, nanny, chauffeur, assistant, etc. God must be calling me to be a celebrity... or perhaps a princess. Definitely a princess. Gosh, I'm slow! All this time I thought it had to do with suffering on Earth to earn a lovelier place in Heaven. Nope! I was just born to be a princess! Ha! So, if anyone needs me, I'll be sitting on my Royal Couch with my Royal Coffee waiting for my Royal Entourage. They better get here fast, my house is a disaster!!
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
Princess Amy
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